happi and sad

a mixture of feelins todae!!!!! happi and sad... why happI??? coZ i goT back somE resuLTs! heH! din xpEct 2 b dat lah.. but in my view.. it's still not good enuf! not gd enuf 2 go to choice jC dat iz aJC.. at the moment, it seems like a buildin surrounded by the fences, an inpenetrable force seperatin me and dat place.. but i reali hope that i can get in! and not juz stand outside and dream about it... wish me luck!!! why am i sad.. sad coz i got dat kinda results and my frens not too good.. my fren, also my brudder lah.. call me go and eat shit leh!!! how insulting can it go!!! i noe how a person feels when the peeps beside u get so HIGH coz i often get that kinda feelin.. dat chong ming lah!!! everitime gt so GGGGGGGGGGDDDDDDDDDDDD results!!!!! how did she do that!!!!!! i wonder... *hmmm* but muz learn frm her~! she my gd fren! good competition is good.. dat iz why it is called gd competition!!! wonder why i keep talkin bout results! it's not the centre of my life mah.. but i will in the comin months, as the big day arrives!!!