having slacked almost the whole day away, i think i shall start my revision of GP exam tomorrow.. seems like there aren't much stuff to revise for gp but i'm really afraid that i'll freak out tomorrow and forget all my points and can't think of points to write for my essay. or even worse, choose the wrong question and write crapp on it, leading to failure of the whole subject.. i dun want that 2 happen. that's what all people do anyway.

i seriously think there's some problem with me. perhaps the holiday after the O'lvels left me less hardworking than i was in sec 4.. perhaps its the aftermath of slacking in the first 3 months of jc that caused me to take less seriousness in my work. it's the GP MID YEAR! something must be wrong. i play too much, go out too much, talk on the phone too much.. when i'm supposed to be doing my tutorials and studying for tests, i'm always online.. chatting, updating my blog, checking out ppl's blog, using friendster.. like doing all the above would help me pass my exams.. i definitely need some self control somewhere, self control not only in terms of using the internet, but in other areas as well..

if i fail my mid yr or any other things, i have nothing else to blame but myself. no one is responsible for your own plight except for yourself. you chose the route of jc.. you chose the worthless A level cert. you chose this hectic life as compared to the carefree one.. you brought yourself down into this misery u face everyday and most importantly, you chose to come to this school. no amount of words can explain the stress one feels everyday. yes, stress is unavoidable. the only way to deal with stress is to effectively use the correct method to deal with stress..

why can people actually not study and get A's for their tests? is that because they pay attention during their lessons and lectures? but bry sleeps during tutorials and his cock teacher actually allows that simply because he knows his stuff and can score during test.. how did he do that! thats probably some self restraint on his part. he probably knows when to study and when not to.. i must learn from people like him, know how 2 play hard and study hard at the same time.

it's gonna be a hectic june hols for me.. couple of things happening..
1) FIR's COMING!! thinking whether to go class bbq cos dat day got concert..
2) extended school time for lectures.. totally sux~
3) suntanning session at sentosa with YVONNE! i think i'll go dere throw face with my fat ass..
4) KBOX session with emily and kelly.. highly suspicious whether it will be on cos they're going bonkers bout madagascar..
5) Guitar chalet... must go must go!
6) go pool with bry after he comes back from pre u sem..
7) sentosa outing with PRI SKOOL PEEPS! dun care! must go!
7) studying for midyears.. notice it's at the bottom of my list..

i guess that's all.. most of the time will be eaten up by mugging session ba.. gonna study with couple of peeps.. lets mugg for midyrs!!!

meanwhile, i'll study essays for gp! till then..