there are just so many things that i wish to do.. i wish to be free from school, i wish to be free from all the competition i face in everywhere i go.. i wish to be away from people that i dun wanna see and i wish to be loved..

i feel suffocated by other people's problems.. why is it that they have to give me such a burden! i feel like i'm being weighed down by that and there's nothing i can do about it.

i hate to be apprehensive. just do it. nike's logo.. i realise that there are some things that you can't just go on and do it. what about the consequences? i don't think i am able to take the aftermath of what i do. and then again, i am probably too timid to admit the truth, too scared to know that things would not or never go my way.

there are about a million things i hate about myself. or even more. why can't i just be like others, carefree and not worrying about anything? i'm getting tired. weaker and weaker by the day. my spirit's almost down. i cant face anyone, not that person. there's nothing to talk, the messages get little by little by the day and i am sick of initiating things. it seems to portray a negative side of me and i don't wish for that to happen. that person probably won't mind but i do. and as i type i don't know if i'm being overly enthu bout the whole thing.

i'm tired. i really am. should i give up? there's no ending. no outcome. at this rate i'll probably end up with nothing.

someone please enlighten me..