i think my dad knows something he thinks i might not know.. but he made it damn obvious to me. he thinks i do not know how 2 control. control what? i simply thinks he distrusts me. it's not the first time. what makes him think that i'm a girl without self control? i have my own senses. maybe all parents are like that, worrying about their kids, wanting to protect them at all costs.. but hey! it's time you let that lil kid out of your arms and do something they really want to do! you can't be holding me back all the time. perhaps i'm as stuborn as a bull.. forever going crazy after that stupid red cloth. i might get hurt because behind that red cloth might be a cage that will enclose me from my freedom. maybe i have to be smart from now on. don't just charge into any red cloth. what good has it got on me? i'll just cut myself from my freedom. i shan't let my dad rule over me. yes i need to depend on him for my money. but that doesn't mean i lose my own rights and i would bend over him just because he's my dad and i have to listen to him. in the first place he has to know that i'm no longer that 3 year old kid who needs to be led by the nose. i have my own opinions, own life, own decisions and i shall solely take responsible for it. nobody's responsible for yourself except you yourself.