there are just some things in life that i don't really understand

why is it that sometimes the feeling is so intense and yet it can be that weak at times..

why is it that feelings can't be consistent?

why is it that people can't be the same?

why is it that there are some days i just don't feel like talking to him at all?

i'll just feel its my own fault. maybe i don't know how to love a person or make a person feel loved. or maybe i'm just not yet ready for all this.

but once i think of:

his silly smile,
his gentleness,
his knack for bumping into things,
his naggy'ness,
his sweetness,
his look on his face when he worries bout me,

i would just brush all negative thoughts away and get myself out of that pitiful state.

love can bring u up to the top of the world, but love can bring you down to the most horrible place on earth.. nevertheless, love is all i need from you.. =)