i seriously don't know what's the problem with me.. maybe i do know.. i am too petty.. i simply get angry over little things that have not much importance.. i'm risking friendships in the course of my 'pettiness'.. i think it's the second time in the year i quarrelled with somebody with no apparent reason.. it's absurd.. 2 people i quarrelled with are my good friends.. they did nothing to deserve my scruntiny and my harsh comments about them. everything that happened is all my fault.. nobody's responsible for anything but themselves.. similarly, i am responsible for all the mess i created. it's my own fault that such things happen and it's my fault that i allow things to happen in this manner.. so whatever i am feeling now, how remourseful i am, how terrible i feel about my own actions, is ALL MY FAULT.. it's not ur fault it's not.. i'm just being freaking childish and unreasonable.. i'm so annoying.. next time when you see my name flashing on your handphone, you have the right not to answer the call cos the person talking to you is so damn freaking childish and annoying..

i wish i didn't have such problems at this time of the month.. i really do need to get down to studying cos i haven't touched a single piece of bio notes and there's SOOOO much to study.. i'll definitely get screwed up for midyrs now.. wtf.. wadsup with my family, my frens, myself, my life!!??!!?? i feel that my parents aren't spending time with me and they're always out with the society and leave me home with my brother.. there wasn't dinner yesterday.. aniway i wasn't hungry.. but it was father's day yesterday and my father din even spend it with us.. my parents are always like home after 10pm and u call that family bonding.. you say that all i talk to you about is money when i talk to you.. have you thought of whether you talked to us? call me insensitive or whatsoever.. it's the actual fact! don't blame me when i need money cos i really need them and you have to give me.. you don't even wanna come home and spend time with me and my brother.. you're always at the society.. the society is more important that your family izit? you make mum suspicious.. i totally hate that.. i hate it when she comes to me and tell me about these problems.. when i'm happily getting ready to go out and have a fun time with my friends at sentosa i have to listen to your crap.. yes.. i'm really insensitive about my mum's feelings.. thats what my friend say when i tell her about my own feelings.. it's hard to tell somebody to stop thinking about it when you are unable to do so.. easier said than done..

push those troubles out of your mind and concentrate on the thing that you need to do most. i tell myself..