The Bottom Line

Healthy ambition is useful. Make sure it stays a healthy and normal size, though.

In Detail

There's an undeniable urge to take a little walk (hardly a walk, even -- more like a wee stroll) on the wild side. However, right now it's best to acknowledge those urges but act on them later and instead concentrate yourself on putting in some big-time effort so you can see some big-time rewards. While it may be momentarily frustrating to sublimate your need for freedom, you'll be thankful later when you see the results.

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that's from friendster horoscopes.. its freaking true can!!!! not all the time but sometimes it's just damn spot on.. i hate that.. but i guess its true cos i truly need to focus on my studies at the moment.. chem test's coming.. i've only touched my chemical kinetics.. i've been slacking for 2 two days.. yesterday and on monday.. i don't know why but i felt guilty that i din study yesterday and before i went to bed i actually had this sinking feeling in me for not studying.. like i've wasted my whole day doing nothing constructive.. yeppp.. horoscope's true.. i need to focus on studying my chem test now cos i have high hopes on my chem.. i've been getting Fs for my tests.. how worse can i go???? no where to go but UP! i hope i'll be thankful for my effort when i get my test paper instead of an F.. feels like getting such low grades seem to be degrading myself to a level where i'm sorry for myself for not doing all i can to pass.. as in PROPER pass.. i'll only feel upset for myself.. so why not just buck up and be happy when i get the paper back! at least i've done justice to myself and not let teachers write "wake-up" on my paper..

i somehow feel that my life lacks colour.. everyday is just the same old routine, going to school and waiting to come home.. and at night i'll be talking on the phone.. but i think i should cut down my phone usage.. seems contradicting because i said i felt neglected yet i don't want to talk on the phone.. i believe we all have our needs at times and yet our priorities sort of clash with our needs, making us unable to choose between need and priority.. i guess your priorities mean alot to you.. i don't understand yours and probably you don't understand mine.. we're both individuals in our own right and it'll be totally insane to know that one person can fully understand the other.. we cannot do that.. because we are genetically variated.. that's what meiosis is all about.. the crossing over of chromosones and chiasmata going on makes us genetically different.. but a common understanding must be reached.. i think that what i've done is right.. i want my feelings to be heard.. what's the use of keeping them inside and make yourself feel so terrible? some things need to be said.. because if you don't say it, the other party wouldn't know and how can common understanding be achieved? i'm not unreasonable.. i won't let you do things that you wouldn't want to do.. even if quitting ever helps, we still have other factors like our studies.. so how is that ever going to help? if only we can ever split ourselves into many forms.. then we can let different forms do different things.. i guess that's never ever gonna happen..

i'm not pessimistic or whatsoever.. but being on different grounds.. in different parts of the country at the same time has its problems and i slowly come to realise that true brutal fact.. being differently coloured does leave some gap between people.. the sky is so far away from the earth.. but yet they are all part of something called earth..

ciao to watch tv.. whatever happened to studying cheM!!!!!???????