keeping the distance..

can be positive and negative

positive aspect:

it trains your mind and helps deter whatever ill thoughts that may come into your brain

negative aspect:

your mind tends to wander off because you ain't adapted for such functions..

but overall, i think i should keep the distance.. why? cos i wanna train my mind not to think of him all the time.. i guess i'm somewhere near but not near enough.. but the good thing is that at least i made some improvement.. thinking about what stef said, i start to relate what she said to myself.. what if one day he finds someone new that he loves so dearly.. i'll be out of the picture.. to be true, i was never in the picture.. i can never be in the picture and i don't allow myself to be in the picture.. i don't wanna be hurt again.. the way to do it is to immune and numb yourself before that sort of thing happens.. i guess i won't have the courage to accept or take the truth if that day ever comes.. it's because those feelings haven't been let go of fully yet.. but i've convinced myself that there's no tommorow, never ever.. so i shan't even think of the slightest possibility that something could happen.. you said that some things are worth waiting for.. but i guess that sorta never applied to us.. we're important to each other only in friends aspect.. i know that.. my friend said you were a jerk.. i agreed to what she said.. you're in fact a lovable jerk.. one who makes you love and hate at the same time.. i shan't do anything to harm the relationship we have now.. i'll just leave it alone.. heaven will decide it's fate..